Waiting for kids.....

I may have posted about this already and if I have, I apologize!!!!!

But, as the title states, I am waiting to even have kids. Actually waiting to even start TRYING for kids for at least 6 years.

Crazy? Maybe. Smart? For me it is. I know that I want to be a mother. But being a mother is not what I want to concentrate on being right now. I want to work on my soon to be marriage first...THEN having kids.

I want to work on being a great wife to my husband. I want to travel (selfish, to some it might be), and I want to go back to school and get a degree...maybe nursing???

I want to better myself first and foremost. I want to have a career in something and still be a mother and housewife!!! What if I'm a stay at home mama and a housewife and all of a sudden I end up getting a divorce??! I'll need a career to fall back on for that. What if we run out of money and I have to go back to work? I'll need a degree/career of some sort for that. Yes I want to do BOTH. Both meaning stay at home mother/wife AND have a degree to fall back on for a career!!!!!

It seems like to me that alot of women think that they can't be good mother's if they work...I say that you can!!! It also seems like that being a stay at home mother/wife is expected of them...it shouldn't be!!! You shouldn't feel like you are expected to be one....only if you want to be one.

I want to be one if, and only IF, my and my husband's finances are secure enough...i.e. him being able to make enough money to support me, him, AND a child. If not, then I will be continuing to work, either full time or part time. It all depends on what his job is (he went to culinary school).

Eventually, I will be able to get onto his insurance and off of mine. But for now, I am keeping mine. Hopefully, he can come off of his and come onto mine for a while...or at least until he gets a better job. That way he can make more money for bills and stuff. I get paid every 2 weeks and insurance comes directly out of my check. So I don't miss it and I don't have to worry about having to send a check in every month along with rent, water, and power.