Life of the Semi Homemaker

  Hey everyone!!!  As my title says, please do NOT feel bad for me. I am still kind of figuring out my thoughts and feelings about this divorce.  So, earlier this month, we had a default hearing due to Patrick not signing or anything for the paperwork. My lawyer and the judge asked me some questions. Patrick also did not show up for court.  We do still talk on occasion, but if he brings up money, etc, I refuse to say anything. I do not want a thing I say to come back and bite me in the ass.  I also moved myself off of his phone plan. He hasn't paid it in several months. He wants me to pay some of it (which I probably will here soon). It's roughly $1645 at this moment in time. This isn't the first time this has happened either.  I am also feeling indifferent about the whole divorce. Yes, still. There have been days where I feel guilty for even WANTING one. Then there are other days that I'm like, "Yes, you did the right thing!!!" I do miss him sometimes. I r...

  As the title says, I'm struggling still. It'll be okay though. Either today or tomorrow will mark 30 days since filing my divorce officially. I do plan on emailing my attorney to find out a quick update about this. Meaning do I have a court date vs has the judge been assigned? If one has been assigned, have they granted a default divorce? I'm just ready for this to be over. I want to live my life. I have already moved on. He is refusing to sign the paperwork. I don't want to be married to him anymore.  Again, I am just ready to move on. I'm regretting me decision to even marry the man. I never should have to begin with. I never should have given him a second date. Much less a third.  The man I am dating loves me for me. He makes me feel loved, safe, wanted, protected, and that he truly loves me and that he is here to stay. I already know he isn't leaving me, and that he wants me for me. He doesn't ask for much, except love and respect in return. I truly fe...

Soooooooooo....... This is hard to say, but I'm getting divorced. Here the last few days, I feel like I'm making a mistake. I felt like this when I first asked for it. I'm still not 100% sure that this was the smartest thing to do. I feel like that we should have done counseling before just jumping into a divorce.  I can deal with the fact that Patrick has a felony on his background. All. Day. Long. I couldn't handle the fact that I found pictures of him posing in ladies lingerie. Then found out that he was sending them to other people. Mainly men.  So I did something petty. I regret that. A lot. But what has happened has happened. And I can't go back.  I also couldn't take how he spoke to me. How he treated me. How he would ignore me if he was even just a tiny bit pissed off. It didn't matter if it was at me, or other people. He also was drinking heavily. And he wasn't slowing down. He was scaring me. He was drinking like my dad and uncle did.  I'm ...