Trusting your significant other

I have gone back and forth between fully trusting my husband and being on the fence.

Well, just now, I just had this moment of peace come over me. I feel, and know I must heade His command, that I need and must trust my husband 100%.

Why did I go back and forth you ask?? Well, I have been hurt so many times in my past when it came to guys. Either I wasn't good enough or they fooled me into thinking they liked me or they had found someone new and didn't tell me until 2 weeks later (we had been together around 6-7 months at the time).

I trust that my wonderful God put my huband Patrick in my path for a reason. He has shown me what REAL love looks like. He has shown me how a man should treat a woman.

Yes Lord, I WILL trust him. I will listen to you and trust him!!!!

My thoughts as of now

So my thoughts of living together vs not and having sex before marriage vs not.

Living together vs not--If you want my opinion, I think that it's the wisest decision that anyone can make. You learn what the other person is all about. You learn how THEY live and how THEY clean. You learn more than you probably want to know about someone. But you learn wether to stick it out or go your sepreate ways...even if you are engaged. For me, my husband and I moved in together about a year after we got engaged to each other. I have had my moments of ups and downs with living together before marriage. But it was truly the best experience that I have ever had. I wouldn't have changed that experience for the world. It helped us both understand each other for the best. We had arguments (and still do) over stupid stuff. You WILL argue!!! It's normal!!!!!!

Now for sex before marriage. I still struggle with some guilt because of it. I was always raised (and took an oath) that I wouldn't have sex before marriage. At 24, I lost it to someone who was NOT my husband (we hadn't met at the time of said lost virginity). We met a couple months later, thank God. Anyways, it's good to remain a virgin until you find your life long mate....or at least until you become engaged to them. Once that happens, then I feel like you should have sex and go ahead and learn how they are in bed. But don't critize how they are in bed while still in said bed. Discuss it later. Learn what each other does and does not like sexually. What does and does not turn the other on. Make sure that you learn each other!!!! It helps I promise.

I know now

I know for a fact that my wedding was NOT  a mistake. It was actually the best thing ever to happen to me and my life.

I saw the first medic that I dated around three or so years ago. He brought in a patient, of course. Well, he didn't say anything to me, which I was kinda glad about. Normally, I am really tense when I am around him and one other. Just glad he didn't say anything to me.

He had told me a while back that I didn't need to get married right now...that I needed to "live my life". Ha!!! I've lived it long enough to know when I am ready for something and when I am not.

BTW, I am the type of woman that's gonna let you know what I want out of my life. If you don't want the same thing, you can ship out. I let him know that when I dated him, which lead to the whole "You need to live your life" bs.

Anyways, I finally found my husband. It was like 2 months after it ended with Bryan. I am very thankful that it had ended with Bryan, because I was lead to Patrick. I will always be grateful for Bryan and even more so for Patrick. If Bryan hadn't ended things with me, I'd be stuck...stuck in a place that I didn't want to be. If it hadn't been for Bryan, I wouldn't have searched and prayed and asked that the right man be sent to me. I would have just been STUCK!!!!!

Happy Easter!!

I hope that everyone has had a good Easter today.

I've spent mine at work...and I get off at 7:00. Not too bad.

May everyone's day be wonderful!!!