Why I'm waiting...

I'm waiting 5-6 years before I even have kids of my own. And yes, I know that "accidents" can happen. Almost always does.

But I hope that those "accidents" don't happen to me.

Why? Because I have several things that I want to do. One of which is go to school for nursing. Another is is that I would like to travel around some before I start popping out babies. I know that last statement is kinda odd, but it's just a phrase that I use. I love kids, don't get me wrong. I just don't want to have any right now. I'm 25 (I'll be 26 this June). I, personally, am not ready for kids.

So I will be waiting 5-6 YEARS before considering becoming pregnant. Some people may look down on me and question me on why. Other's may pressure me into having a baby before I am ready for that resonsibility. Like I stated before, I would like to go to school before kids come along. My fiance is supportive of that decision. No one else in either family knows of that decision. They won't know unless they specifically ask us. I will be mean about it, too, if they choose to pressure me into having a baby.

I know good and well a lot of people will question my waiting that many years. I know some will look down on me for it. I know that others will even try to pressure me into having a child before I am ready for one. My fiance and I are the ONLY ones that know when WE are ready for a baby. Then and only then will we start trying for one. It's my body...not any one else's body.

Semi Homemaker: Regrets

I'm regretting that I ever moved in with my fiance.

Why, you ask?

The answer is that (1) my mom seems to be taking it a bit hard and (2) there's a chance that she could have breast cancer.

Yes...BREAST CANCER!!!!!

I feel horrible for not being at home. I feel like I need to move back home with her and be with her right now than in my own apartment being the adult that I need to be.

When I was a kid, I didn't really have a care in the world. I could go outside and have fun. My mom took care of all "boo boo's" that I got. She made me feel better when I was sick. Now that I've moved out, all of a sudden it seems like her world is spiraling out of control. Her oldest child (me) has moved out and is getting married. It seems like she's got a bad case of Empty Nest Syndrome. I feel horrible that she's going through it.

I know that I need to be the adult that I know I am, but at the same time, I just wanna go back home and be that little kid again...with no worries at all. No bills to pay. No rent to pay. Nothing like that. I could go the store for the both of us and all would be good.

I just wanna prove to her that I am the adult that I know that I am and to get her respect for being a responsible adult that I know that I am. But at the same time, I just wanna be that kid again...the one that she could take care of.

Semi Homemaker: Keeping A Clean House

In order for me, a self titled Semi Homemaker, to keep my apartment clean, I'd have to clean every single day!!!


Gah!!!!!! 


hahaha....well, cleaning isn't going over so well. I clean at least once a week. Sometimes once every OTHER week. I wash clothes in a random way. I don't have a set day or days of the week to clean and wash clothes and what not. 


Do I? I think I do. To keep my sanity anyways. lol!!! 


Now I understand why mama ALWAYS...FREAKING...CLEANED!!!!!! A messy house can drive you CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Makes you wanna go cross eyed. Or at least I feel that way. ha!!! Not sure about other people. 


Keeping 1200 square feet clean can be difficult, but once I get it clean, it stays that way for a few days or so. Then it's messy again. Oh well!!!


But I am getting the hang of it all. :-D

Semi Homemaker: Kindle Fire

My mom gave me a kindle fire!!!! So excited right now.

For a whilem I didn't want one. I still like my old kindle. It's not quite 5 years old and still does what I want it to do. BUT with the kindle fire, I can get aps on it, which is AWESOME!!!

Now I can get on FB and play words with friends (manderin626 if you wanna play!!) and do other things, like listening to music. So I am really enjoying my new toy, all thanks goes to my sweet mama for this AWESOME gift!!!!!!

Semi Homemaker and Lonliness

Lonliness...depression...lonliness...I can't decide which one it is.

I think it's more lonliness than anything else. Right now my fiance is working a double (yes he and I live toghether). Granted I've cleaned and watched tv and listened to music most of the day today. That's helped with my lonliness.


Sometimes, it feels like I'm depressed. Not depressed in the since that I want to hurt myself...depressed because I'm sad...sad that I'm alone. 


I've always wondered if other housewives/stay-at-home-moms/part time home makers have the same issues. Have the same lonliness that I have. Lonely for their better halves. I'm sure to some degree that people do have the lonliness that I have.


I like being busy. It helps me not to be so lonely. Also, my fiance is trying to find a much better paying job (he is currently a waiter at The Cheesecake Factory, but is looking for a management position). If he does get a better paying job, then I can go part time unbenefitted (I'll be on his insurance by then hopefully) and work 2 or 3 days a week instead of 3-4 days a week. Prayers please for him finding and receving a better paying job in the area that he wants!!! Thanks!!!!


Enough of the whoa is me stuff. On to the fact that I am gonna be getting married in October!!! October 20, 2012 to be exact!!! I already have my dress (it's currently with my mom and grandma...). 1 thing down, and about 899 more to go...or so it seems.....hehehe!!!!!


I'm excited now. For a while I wasn't excited. But now that things are coming together, I'm getting excited. :-D


Prayers (if you are the praying type) that all things go according to plan and that things get better for all.

Life of the Semi Homemaker

You read the title right!!! 


I am going to be writing about my life as a Semi Homemaker.


Semi meaning that, on my off days, I am a homemaker. I work 3-4 days per week, so I get to clean the apartment, wash the clothes, wash the dishes, and do other house hold chores while my fiance is at work. 


Fun, sometimes. Boring, sometimes. Do I always wanna do it? No. But it's a necessary evil. 


Right now, I don't have kids. Which makes my job, cleaning wise anyways, a bit easier. It's just me and Patrick. 


Today, he is working a double, which means I have the apartment to myself. 1200 square feet, 2 bedrooms, and 2 bathrooms. A full sized kitchen, den, and dining room. All of that to myself. No one bothering me. No one sitting like a bump on a log. At least I get it all to myself to clean in a nice slow time frame. 


I did promise him that I would have it all cleaned by the time he gets home tonight. 


So, I need to get off of here and get on to finishing my cleaning!!!!!