Semi Homemaker and Lonliness

Lonliness...depression...lonliness...I can't decide which one it is.

I think it's more lonliness than anything else. Right now my fiance is working a double (yes he and I live toghether). Granted I've cleaned and watched tv and listened to music most of the day today. That's helped with my lonliness.


Sometimes, it feels like I'm depressed. Not depressed in the since that I want to hurt myself...depressed because I'm sad...sad that I'm alone. 


I've always wondered if other housewives/stay-at-home-moms/part time home makers have the same issues. Have the same lonliness that I have. Lonely for their better halves. I'm sure to some degree that people do have the lonliness that I have.


I like being busy. It helps me not to be so lonely. Also, my fiance is trying to find a much better paying job (he is currently a waiter at The Cheesecake Factory, but is looking for a management position). If he does get a better paying job, then I can go part time unbenefitted (I'll be on his insurance by then hopefully) and work 2 or 3 days a week instead of 3-4 days a week. Prayers please for him finding and receving a better paying job in the area that he wants!!! Thanks!!!!


Enough of the whoa is me stuff. On to the fact that I am gonna be getting married in October!!! October 20, 2012 to be exact!!! I already have my dress (it's currently with my mom and grandma...). 1 thing down, and about 899 more to go...or so it seems.....hehehe!!!!!


I'm excited now. For a while I wasn't excited. But now that things are coming together, I'm getting excited. :-D


Prayers (if you are the praying type) that all things go according to plan and that things get better for all.