I'm regretting that I ever moved in with my fiance.
Why, you ask?
The answer is that (1) my mom seems to be taking it a bit hard and (2) there's a chance that she could have breast cancer.
Yes...BREAST CANCER!!!!!
I feel horrible for not being at home. I feel like I need to move back home with her and be with her right now than in my own apartment being the adult that I need to be.
When I was a kid, I didn't really have a care in the world. I could go outside and have fun. My mom took care of all "boo boo's" that I got. She made me feel better when I was sick. Now that I've moved out, all of a sudden it seems like her world is spiraling out of control. Her oldest child (me) has moved out and is getting married. It seems like she's got a bad case of Empty Nest Syndrome. I feel horrible that she's going through it.
I know that I need to be the adult that I know I am, but at the same time, I just wanna go back home and be that little kid again...with no worries at all. No bills to pay. No rent to pay. Nothing like that. I could go the store for the both of us and all would be good.
I just wanna prove to her that I am the adult that I know that I am and to get her respect for being a responsible adult that I know that I am. But at the same time, I just wanna be that kid again...the one that she could take care of.
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