Life of the Semi Homemaker

  Hey everyone!!!  As my title says, please do NOT feel bad for me. I am still kind of figuring out my thoughts and feelings about this divorce.  So, earlier this month, we had a default hearing due to Patrick not signing or anything for the paperwork. My lawyer and the judge asked me some questions. Patrick also did not show up for court.  We do still talk on occasion, but if he brings up money, etc, I refuse to say anything. I do not want a thing I say to come back and bite me in the ass.  I also moved myself off of his phone plan. He hasn't paid it in several months. He wants me to pay some of it (which I probably will here soon). It's roughly $1645 at this moment in time. This isn't the first time this has happened either.  I am also feeling indifferent about the whole divorce. Yes, still. There have been days where I feel guilty for even WANTING one. Then there are other days that I'm like, "Yes, you did the right thing!!!" I do miss him sometimes. I r...

  As the title says, I'm struggling still. It'll be okay though. Either today or tomorrow will mark 30 days since filing my divorce officially. I do plan on emailing my attorney to find out a quick update about this. Meaning do I have a court date vs has the judge been assigned? If one has been assigned, have they granted a default divorce? I'm just ready for this to be over. I want to live my life. I have already moved on. He is refusing to sign the paperwork. I don't want to be married to him anymore.  Again, I am just ready to move on. I'm regretting me decision to even marry the man. I never should have to begin with. I never should have given him a second date. Much less a third.  The man I am dating loves me for me. He makes me feel loved, safe, wanted, protected, and that he truly loves me and that he is here to stay. I already know he isn't leaving me, and that he wants me for me. He doesn't ask for much, except love and respect in return. I truly fe...

Soooooooooo....... This is hard to say, but I'm getting divorced. Here the last few days, I feel like I'm making a mistake. I felt like this when I first asked for it. I'm still not 100% sure that this was the smartest thing to do. I feel like that we should have done counseling before just jumping into a divorce.  I can deal with the fact that Patrick has a felony on his background. All. Day. Long. I couldn't handle the fact that I found pictures of him posing in ladies lingerie. Then found out that he was sending them to other people. Mainly men.  So I did something petty. I regret that. A lot. But what has happened has happened. And I can't go back.  I also couldn't take how he spoke to me. How he treated me. How he would ignore me if he was even just a tiny bit pissed off. It didn't matter if it was at me, or other people. He also was drinking heavily. And he wasn't slowing down. He was scaring me. He was drinking like my dad and uncle did.  I'm ...

  Dearest Buddy, I know it's been a few years since you passed over the Rainbow Bridge. You were one of the silliest and sweetest dogs I have ever owned.  I miss you SO much!!! I know you, Charlie, Addie, Frisky, and Prince were all there to meet Jagger at the Rainbow Bridge. I know that yall are all playing together, having so much fun. I know that when I pass away, whenever that might be, you all will be waiting for me as well. Charlie and Addie, yall 2 were super sweet as well. Goofy dogs. I miss yall too.  Oh Frisky!!! You were the first dog that I remember having. I loved you and you loved me. We were the best of friends. You loved sleeping with me and outside my door as well. I miss your fur being EVERYWHERE and on EVERYTHING!!! I miss you being super protective of me and the house. Oh Prince!!! I wish that I could remember you. The only way FOR me to remember you is thru pictures and stories from Mama. You tolerated me to the best of your ability. I didn't know bet...

  Dearest Jagger, I am beyond sorry for yelling at you in your last days...and every other time that I did. I didn't know just how truly sick you were, and neither did Patrick.  We loved you SO much. You were our heart dog. You were the sweetest and kindest boy there ever was. We miss you so much. It's not the same without you, Jagger.  We have your ashes sitting on the mantle and we look everyday. I still cry from time to time. It's been 2 months since you passed. My heart is broken, still.  You have a new sister. Her name is Sox. We tell her about you all the time. Monte still looks for you some. She misses you. She stopped doing her whining stuff for the longest time after you passed. She just recently started it up again.  I can't bear to see your nose prints on your window. So I keep the blinds closed more often than not. Sox does like to look out the window from time to time. She is so much like you, but also so different.  I miss your snuggles at nig...

  I love THE SIMS. I'm currently playing The Sims 4.  I had this great friend that I met playing this game. His name is Anders. He unfortunately has passed away due to a heart condition. I absolutely loved talking to him. He knew about my husband, and I knew about his wife. We were actually talking about me coming to his country so we could meet up. He is from Norway.  He knew a lot about me, and I knew a lot about him. I still look for him to message me from time to time. I really miss our talks. He was, and is, a great guy.  Anders, please look out for me. Be that guardian angel that I need.