Life of the Semi Homemaker

I don't mean to be a negative Nancy...ever. But it's soooo easy to get into that kind of routine.  A routine thinking that no matter what you do is good enough. That you aren't good enough for certain things. That you CAN'T do certain things.  I am good enough. I do try.  But how hard do I try?? I try as hard as I can. I want everything to be perfect...and that's what gets me every single time.  I try so hard in making everything perfect, that I screw things up. If I just try to do my best and not make things perfect (or what I perceive as perfect to my boss/supervisor) then I might just do a lot better.  Focus on one thing at a time.  And here I go being a negative Nancy again and being hard on myself. Also, the harder I am on myself, the worse things seem to be. I also must admit that cleaning is NOT my forte at all. I just can't hang. I can't keep up. I'm also afraid that if I rush, I won't do a good enough job. That I will forget ...

My new job, from what I have noticed, seem to be a little more on the strict side of things. Which I appreciate more than they know.  My last job was incredibly lax in how they did things and how they enforced rules and enforced how to clean things. I also feel like I was not taught correctly. You can't teach someone any new skills in less than a day. I'm sorry, but you just can't. So, now I really have to put it into high gear and make sure that I do everything correctly based on the limited training that I do have.  Argh!!!!  But I do appreciate the higher standards that this company seems to have. Also this company has been in business for 33 years. So they really have cleaning down to a "T". I should be able to learn how to correctly do things and reset myself vs how I was "taught".  ***I will not be stating the name of this company until I know that I will be staying for the long haul***