Life of the Semi Homemaker

I know for a fact that my wedding was NOT  a mistake. It was actually the best thing ever to happen to me and my life. I saw the first medic that I dated around three or so years ago. He brought in a patient, of course. Well, he didn't say anything to me, which I was kinda glad about. Normally, I am really tense when I am around him and one other. Just glad he didn't say anything to me. He had told me a while back that I didn't need to get married right now...that I needed to "live my life". Ha!!! I've lived it long enough to know when I am ready for something and when I am not. BTW, I am the type of woman that's gonna let you know what I want out of my life. If you don't want the same thing, you can ship out. I let him know that when I dated him, which lead to the whole "You need to live your life" bs. Anyways, I finally found my husband. It was like 2 months after it ended with Bryan. I am very thankful that it had ended with Bryan,...

I hope that everyone has had a good Easter today. I've spent mine at work...and I get off at 7:00. Not too bad. May everyone's day be wonderful!!!

With all that has happened over the last few days, I've started wondering even more. Wondering about what?? Wondering about whether or not I should actually have kids of my own. I've always wanted kids, but with all of this crap going on lately, I've considered NOT having children. It's been sitting heavy on my heart for several weeks now. Maybe even longer than that.  I've prayed about it. The answers I keep getting are to have children. Not to bypass having them. You know, if you ask, you shall receive that answers that you are looking for. Sometimes you just have to be quiet (or in a couple of instances, asleep) to receive those answers.  It's difficult for me. I have always wanted children. Children are truly a blessing from God himself. They are given to you perfect, or in many cases with disabilities, for a reason.  All I can do is pray and pray some more. I'm not going to defy what God is telling me to do...which is have chil...

Cleaning...it's the story of my life. Hate it but its necessary. I haven't done that much, so maybe if I turned this tv off I'd get it done huh? Hehehe!!! Bad thing is is that one of my fave shows is on right now. But the last one ends at 4:30. What's worse cause we have peeps coming over today!!!!! Ahhhhhh!!!! So yes cleaning sucks. More so when your fave shows are on. Must get it done now tho. The sooner it's done the better I will feel.

Went to the social security office today and officially changed my name. It's now Erin Amanda B.... Not gonna spell out the last name all the way. I had issues with deciding how to do my name. Erin Amanda c-b; Erin c b; Erin Amanda C. BUT I went with Erin Amanda B. not bad at all. I'm just gla that I went ahead and did it today. Almost forgot about it too. I did yesterday. Lol!!!!! So it's done. I'll officially be mrs b tomorrow morning.

I HATE it!!!!!! I have so many things going WRONG with it!!! There are leaks everywhere. My a/c unit keeps freezing up. My tiled tub is jacked up (enter other words there that aren't acceptable). I'm afraid for mold. It smells like an ashtray because of the neighbors right next door and below me...cigarette smoke comes through so easily and my fiancé and I don't smoke!!!!!! God, Please help me keep my sanity!!!

Watching CHASING UFOS. I've seen a couple of the episodes. I like watching stuff like this. Not quite sure why I do except for the fact that it sparks my interest. Interest in the supernatural. Interested in stuff that may or may not be real. I believe in God. I believe in Jesus. I believe in angels. People are put into our lives for a reason. We see things that tests what we believe. UFOs are such a thing. Ghosts and other paranormal things are some others. Might make us feel like we are going crazy at times, but all we can do is pray or fall prey into such things.